Changing...

I haven't been doing much blogging lately. I keep a journal on my IPAD but it is a private one since I hate to put my personal and intimate feelings online. Alot that has been going on with my family has been ultra private and journaling this way (privately) is really what suits me best. But all that to say that yesterday's journal entry was one that I could blog about. It is about changes in lifestyle. Life changes for all of us and we find ourselves at different seasons of our lives. This is a new season for me (remarriage, blended family, having adult children, caring for an elderly & failing parent...) so blogging helps me make that adjustment. Monday, June 25, 2012        "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart.".   Psalm 73:26 It is funny that all last week I was in Ft Worth at a workshop and had all the week to myself and I did not journal. Crazy huh? It was a busy week with very full days (strict 8:00 am - 5:00 pm). Then the evenings found me working out, "debriefing"/relaxing, and doing AP homework. After the AP homework, I did not feel like using my brain. Lol!    It was nice though to not have anyone "needing" me. No laundry, no housework, no watering yard or flowers, and no cooking. It was WONDERFUL! But I did miss my husband. By day 3, I felt lonely and empty without him. He really does complete me.  But today  is Monday and I am terribly tired. Since returning, I have hit the ground running. I am thankful for having a little time this morning to "recoup" and to have some time to myself. I have to wait for the admin building to open at 9 am.  I am being kind of selfish too. I just realize that my life now is way, way busy and full and it just plum wears me out sometimes. It is so busier than my single mom life. Crazy huh? Busier than me as a single mom with 3 jobs. Yep, crazy but it is true. When I was a single mom, it was busy but I was able to monitor it and pace it out.  I was able to "schedule out" the busy-ness and then fill in the in between times with quietness and calmness. My life now is like a "go-go-go" life now. I have to fight and be selfish to give myself quiet and calm time. I am learning this. But as Bobby says, "You have to take the good with the bad." and this is so true and I would not trade my life. Not for the world. I am so so blessed. I truly am. I have a great family and great husband. I love it all just gotta adjust. :-)